my voice is also like one of a duck's. for now i can't project high pitch voice. lucky enough i still can operate at the low frequency range. the cause of a sharp drop in voice quality is...yes... if you have heard, a karaoke session 2 nights ago at KBox. yes... i know i'm lame. i'm ashamed of myself. i had no clue why we ended up there but by the time i realised, chris, ling, pocky and i were there in a ktv room and we stayed all the way til 5am. the more shameful part is that now i'm an official member of KBox. i even carry the member card in my wallet! it's actually pocky who tucked the card in my wallet. she said so that i can flaunt it to my friends. right... i am so proud of myself
hardcore jamming this week. we are jamming everyday accept NYE. so if u're free on 2nd Jan, please drop by istana park. we have quite a good set await for you.
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
My deepest sympathy goes out to the victims' families of the Tsunami and to the countries that are devastated.
btw, i wanted to buy this book - stoned, naked and looking in my neighbour's window. but i realised it'll be quite silly spending over $20 on a book that doesn't really have any meanings. the book compiles some of the funniest confessions made by random people on the internet at http://grouphug.us/. check it out. confess something. maybe your confession will be featured in the book vol. II
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btw, i wanted to buy this book - stoned, naked and looking in my neighbour's window. but i realised it'll be quite silly spending over $20 on a book that doesn't really have any meanings. the book compiles some of the funniest confessions made by random people on the internet at http://grouphug.us/. check it out. confess something. maybe your confession will be featured in the book vol. II
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this is sad. christmas is over and i haven't eaten any turkey yet. i went to cold storage online to see if there's turkey on sale since christmas is over. but no... all the turkeys are out of stock! this is amazing. but i saw this herb turkey that costs $85 each. it looks soooo good.
weekend seemed so long to me. i jammed with A.F.T.P and it went quite well. jamming with them again next weekend. X'mas slumber party was quite fun. but in the end only 2 people stayed awake whole night (not including me though). =s went for another gathering on the boxing day with FFN people. fortunately i wasn't so bored as expected which is a very good thing cos i contemplated for 2 weeks if i should join them. went for screamo-metal gig at night. not my thing but pretty interesting. i know i need to be versatile. went to pocky's place for some thai food after that. i can't eat spicy food anymore. i was eating and crying the whole time - i suck. we went to join chris and ling at bar none to check out addy (again). there was this crazy girl that kept dancing with us. so mad.
and i lost my paper bag that contained all my gifts and my pyjamas. i'm so sad. it's my second favourite pyjamas.
tmr morning i've got softball match again. this time we have to win otherwise we won't be qualified for the next round.
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
a stranger said to Santa, "hey, you want a lift?"
so we took a ride on a silver horse that brought us to a white castle. there we ate, talked, watched people pass us by. the sun was coming up. it's time for Santa to leave and so for me to sleep.
i said bye to Santa Claus and told him i hoped to see him again soon. Santa replied "i'll see you soon."
and he left for north pole village, a cold dry town where he came from. and i'm left wondering if it was real or it was just a dream that Santa was there, right at my doorstep last night.
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weekend seemed so long to me. i jammed with A.F.T.P and it went quite well. jamming with them again next weekend. X'mas slumber party was quite fun. but in the end only 2 people stayed awake whole night (not including me though). =s went for another gathering on the boxing day with FFN people. fortunately i wasn't so bored as expected which is a very good thing cos i contemplated for 2 weeks if i should join them. went for screamo-metal gig at night. not my thing but pretty interesting. i know i need to be versatile. went to pocky's place for some thai food after that. i can't eat spicy food anymore. i was eating and crying the whole time - i suck. we went to join chris and ling at bar none to check out addy (again). there was this crazy girl that kept dancing with us. so mad.
and i lost my paper bag that contained all my gifts and my pyjamas. i'm so sad. it's my second favourite pyjamas.
tmr morning i've got softball match again. this time we have to win otherwise we won't be qualified for the next round.
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
Santa Story
Santa Claus came to my room last night with some food and drink. he got some books back as an exchanged present. he wanted to leave but i wanted him to stay on as i haven't seen Santa Claus for such a long time. so he did and we had some drinks. his reindeers got drunk and ran off so we ended up walking along the street.a stranger said to Santa, "hey, you want a lift?"
so we took a ride on a silver horse that brought us to a white castle. there we ate, talked, watched people pass us by. the sun was coming up. it's time for Santa to leave and so for me to sleep.
i said bye to Santa Claus and told him i hoped to see him again soon. Santa replied "i'll see you soon."
and he left for north pole village, a cold dry town where he came from. and i'm left wondering if it was real or it was just a dream that Santa was there, right at my doorstep last night.
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wow... my christmas eve was so exciting. i slept from 8.30pm of christmas eve to 3.30am of christmas day!
why should i be celebrating a birthday of someone i don't know or someone i don't think he even exist anyway?
and along with a huge success of commercialisation, christmas has lost its real meaning. it has become a symbol of consumerism where the shop owners get to earn a lot of money over a short period of time, clubs and restaurants get to charge double for the same old things without feeling guilty, where the office workers get their day off and the kids have an excuse to party.
actually i don't really like a christmas day although i have to admit that i like the nice and warm spirit of christmas cos it always reminds me of how lonely one can be. so christmas is when you get together with your family and your loved ones. but what if my family is not here and no one loves me? or people who love me are spending christmas with someone they love more?
so i've been spending christmas alone for the past few years. i'd rather do that then desperately find someone to party with just to give myself a fake comfort that i'm not alone in this cruel world. well, after all, we are all born alone and will die alone. i see no reason why we should distract ourselves from the fact that everyone is actually alone.
but tonight, X'mas Slumber Party at wing's place! and i haven't found my cute pyjamas yet!
oh... and i have to tell you my little secret about christmas. there's one thing that i really like a lot when christmas comes - it's HUGE TURKEY WITH CRANBERRIES SAUCE!!!! yummy!!
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Friday, December 24, 2004
Car
Peugeot 307 Coupe Cabriolet
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Media Players
iRiver PMP-140 multimedia player
iPod mini
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PDA
XDA IIs
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Communicators
Xphone II
Nokia Vertu Signature
nokia 7280
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And I want a car, and I want a life
And I want a first class trip to Hawaii
I want a lifetime supply
Of skittles & slurpees and Eskimo pies
I want a DVD,
A big screen TV
Just bring me things that I don't need
'Cuz now it's Christmas
And I want everything
I just can't wait
Christmas
So don't stop spending
I want a million gifts, that's right
Don't forget my Christmas list tonight
'Cuz now it's Christmas
Somebody take me away
Or give me a time machine
To take me straight to midnight
I'll be alright
I want a girl in my bed
Who knows what to do
A PlayStation 2
I want a shopping spree
In New York City
Just bring me things that I don't need
I wish I could take this day
And make it last forever
And no matter what I get tonight
I want more
It's Christmas and I want everything
I just can't wait
It's Christmas and I want everything now
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why should i be celebrating a birthday of someone i don't know or someone i don't think he even exist anyway?
and along with a huge success of commercialisation, christmas has lost its real meaning. it has become a symbol of consumerism where the shop owners get to earn a lot of money over a short period of time, clubs and restaurants get to charge double for the same old things without feeling guilty, where the office workers get their day off and the kids have an excuse to party.
actually i don't really like a christmas day although i have to admit that i like the nice and warm spirit of christmas cos it always reminds me of how lonely one can be. so christmas is when you get together with your family and your loved ones. but what if my family is not here and no one loves me? or people who love me are spending christmas with someone they love more?
so i've been spending christmas alone for the past few years. i'd rather do that then desperately find someone to party with just to give myself a fake comfort that i'm not alone in this cruel world. well, after all, we are all born alone and will die alone. i see no reason why we should distract ourselves from the fact that everyone is actually alone.
but tonight, X'mas Slumber Party at wing's place! and i haven't found my cute pyjamas yet!
oh... and i have to tell you my little secret about christmas. there's one thing that i really like a lot when christmas comes - it's HUGE TURKEY WITH CRANBERRIES SAUCE!!!! yummy!!
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Friday, December 24, 2004
objects of desire - my christmas list
Peugeot 307 Coupe Cabriolet
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Media Players
iRiver PMP-140 multimedia player
iPod mini
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PDA
XDA IIs
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Communicators
Xphone II
Nokia Vertu Signature
nokia 7280
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Simple Plan - My Christmas List
Santa is coming tonightAnd I want a car, and I want a life
And I want a first class trip to Hawaii
I want a lifetime supply
Of skittles & slurpees and Eskimo pies
I want a DVD,
A big screen TV
Just bring me things that I don't need
'Cuz now it's Christmas
And I want everything
I just can't wait
Christmas
So don't stop spending
I want a million gifts, that's right
Don't forget my Christmas list tonight
'Cuz now it's Christmas
Somebody take me away
Or give me a time machine
To take me straight to midnight
I'll be alright
I want a girl in my bed
Who knows what to do
A PlayStation 2
I want a shopping spree
In New York City
Just bring me things that I don't need
I wish I could take this day
And make it last forever
And no matter what I get tonight
I want more
It's Christmas and I want everything
I just can't wait
It's Christmas and I want everything now
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it's a pity how some people can't let go of their ego and vanity. they sacrifice some sorts of happiness in order to hold on to their so-called values. they are blind. their eyes are clouded. they let their vanity and pride take control, make them do things that they do not really want to do, just to give them a false sense of security that they are in control of themselves. in fact, they are not. in fact, they are being controlled: being controlled by their own fear.
it's also a pity how i have given up everything - my pride, my ego, my vanity - just to exchange with a little moment of happiness. but it's never enough. cos nothing will ever be enough. cos they are blind. and their minds are clouded. clouded with pride. clouded with vanity. clouded with ego. clouded with fear.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
i'll be there. anyone coming pls gimme a call!
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anyway, we had a so-called photoshoot after jamming. went all the way to marriott to find a nice spot. after many millions shots taken, only 2 were deemed acceptable by the ashes (so picky =s)
then we were asked to leave by the security guard which seriously pissed me off big time. he even refused to let us use the lift and insisted in we walking down the escalator that wasn't working. i'm still angry. i'll write in. must go back and get his name first.
we went down to bar none to check out addy (again) after the photoshoot. stayed till it closed pocky and i then continued our night journey at the Gotham Penthouse. pretty cool place. huge dance floor. a lot of spacious sofas that you can even lie down flat on it. tables that have steps lead up to the table top. (so you can dance on the table?) really cute glow-in-the-dark jellyfish. the main area plays better kind of techno. not bad. there's also a lounge area that plays lighter kind of music suitable for a nice talk with friends. cool toielts. one-for-one promotion. definitely it'll make its way up to become one of the top nightclubs in singapore if it can attract the right kind of crowd.
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
"Pitcher Ni was in excellent form today, earning herself half a carton of coke as a reward from supporter Jia Hui"
[source: www.hallX.net]
i'll be good next match so i can claim another half carton of coke. don't forget, jiahui!
why this angle???
anyway, meet Tucker Max, the dickhead.
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it's also a pity how i have given up everything - my pride, my ego, my vanity - just to exchange with a little moment of happiness. but it's never enough. cos nothing will ever be enough. cos they are blind. and their minds are clouded. clouded with pride. clouded with vanity. clouded with ego. clouded with fear.
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
tonight - Overdrive 2004 final
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Venue : Rouge Time : 23rd December 2004 @ 7:15PM Price : $12 inclusive of drink coupon plus goodie bag |
i'll be there. anyone coming pls gimme a call!
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jamming finally
finally scarlet ash got together last night to jam after a long awaited 3 months since we last jammed together. this is, of cos, to prepare for the istana park gig. guess we'll need a lot to brush up next week as the sound last night wasn't tight at all. well, but isn't that what it's supposed to be when we don't jam together?anyway, we had a so-called photoshoot after jamming. went all the way to marriott to find a nice spot. after many millions shots taken, only 2 were deemed acceptable by the ashes (so picky =s)
then we were asked to leave by the security guard which seriously pissed me off big time. he even refused to let us use the lift and insisted in we walking down the escalator that wasn't working. i'm still angry. i'll write in. must go back and get his name first.
we went down to bar none to check out addy (again) after the photoshoot. stayed till it closed pocky and i then continued our night journey at the Gotham Penthouse. pretty cool place. huge dance floor. a lot of spacious sofas that you can even lie down flat on it. tables that have steps lead up to the table top. (so you can dance on the table?) really cute glow-in-the-dark jellyfish. the main area plays better kind of techno. not bad. there's also a lounge area that plays lighter kind of music suitable for a nice talk with friends. cool toielts. one-for-one promotion. definitely it'll make its way up to become one of the top nightclubs in singapore if it can attract the right kind of crowd.
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
IHG
it comes and it goes. this happens when you don't train properly. today my pitching sucked big time. we lost. hope it wasn't just becos of me. well, at least i secured half a carton of coke from the last match."Pitcher Ni was in excellent form today, earning herself half a carton of coke as a reward from supporter Jia Hui"
[source: www.hallX.net]
i'll be good next match so i can claim another half carton of coke. don't forget, jiahui!
why this angle???
anyway, meet Tucker Max, the dickhead.
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when it doesn't come, it doesn't come at all. once it wants to come, it's all coming back to me.
Music, sports, brain stimulants, programming challenges, excitements, thrills and blah...
look out for Scarlet Ash's next gig on 2 January at the Istana park. the exact time will be confirmed again soon.
here's the song list:
1) Scarlet Ash - Run away
2) Avril - Take Me Away
3) Avril - Nobody's Home (**yawn**)
4) Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life ( i swear audrey'll hate this song )
5) The Calling - Our Lives
6) Hoobastank - The Reason ( and i think this song is fuckingly cliché )
7) The Rasmus - In the Shadows
other songs to jam with A.F.T.P:
1) Finch - New beginnings
2) Finch - Letters to You
3) Finch - Three Simple Words
4) Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die
5) My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay
6) The Used - Buried Myself Alive
7) New Found Glory - Sonny (this song is killing me)
okay... that's quite a lot to learn given that i have less than 5 days to prepare.
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Monday, December 20, 2004
Music, sports, brain stimulants, programming challenges, excitements, thrills and blah...
look out for Scarlet Ash's next gig on 2 January at the Istana park. the exact time will be confirmed again soon.
here's the song list:
1) Scarlet Ash - Run away
2) Avril - Take Me Away
3) Avril - Nobody's Home (**yawn**)
4) Simple Plan - Welcome to My Life ( i swear audrey'll hate this song )
5) The Calling - Our Lives
6) Hoobastank - The Reason ( and i think this song is fuckingly cliché )
7) The Rasmus - In the Shadows
other songs to jam with A.F.T.P:
1) Finch - New beginnings
2) Finch - Letters to You
3) Finch - Three Simple Words
4) Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die
5) My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay
6) The Used - Buried Myself Alive
7) New Found Glory - Sonny (this song is killing me)
okay... that's quite a lot to learn given that i have less than 5 days to prepare.
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Monday, December 20, 2004
after been losing a lot of matches last week, i've finally gained back bits of my confidence in the previous table tennis and softball matches. tmr is gonna be a day full of games if i decide to play hockey. that will be... softball at 9am, table tennis at 2.30pm and hockey at 6pm. and it also means that i won't have time to sleep cos my usual bedtime is 9am to 7pm. but hockey is so tempting despite the size of the pit. all my buddies are playing and i want to play with them. we've always played games together for the past 3 years. maybe i really should give it a go.
so tired. i haven't slept yet since last night and went straight for softball match as soon as i got back hall. lucky it was just softball. i didn't have to run so much. such a perfect sport for the unfit like me. met up with pocky last night and it was kinda... nice? nice is an understatement actually =) watched cruel intentions for the trillion times and i still fall in love with Sebastian (Ryan Phillipe) everytime i watch it. he is sooo charming. gosh... i so just want to melt when i see his smile.
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Sunday, December 19, 2004
You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her and you can't have her
You want to, but she wont let you
- Auf Achse, Franz Ferdinand
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Friday, December 17, 2004
burn me. burn me alive. burn me to hell. bury me alive.
Sampoerna tastes like your kiss. that sweet sensatation on your rosy lips. the nostalgic smell thats no longer there. the familiar tune i no longer hear. the music is still playing. playing loud. but i hear nothing. drowned by silence. deafening. ear-splitting. no one speaks. there's no more to seek. like my mind that no longer shines. my eyes that no longer spark. my word does not inspire. my face i hide in the dark.
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so tired. i haven't slept yet since last night and went straight for softball match as soon as i got back hall. lucky it was just softball. i didn't have to run so much. such a perfect sport for the unfit like me. met up with pocky last night and it was kinda... nice? nice is an understatement actually =) watched cruel intentions for the trillion times and i still fall in love with Sebastian (Ryan Phillipe) everytime i watch it. he is sooo charming. gosh... i so just want to melt when i see his smile.
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Sunday, December 19, 2004
little black cat
o... little black cat i see you sitting there and you look lonely. i wish i could play with you but i'd never dare to come too close cos i'm afraid you'll run away. o... little black cat you are so near yet so far. you are within my reach but i can never touch you. and your eyes shine bright in the darkness of the night. yet they are mild and not as wild as i thought they would be. little black cat i can see that you are afraid. you just sit there, not running away, but not letting me touch you. o... how temptation is killing me. little black cat, why don't you be more trusting, come closer and play with me?You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her and you can't have her
You want to, but she wont let you
- Auf Achse, Franz Ferdinand
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The Launch@Rouge
Mizery Free and Mistaken Identity album launch on friday night was pretty good. i wouldn't say it's excellent cos somehow it was just lack of something. perhaps it was the atmosphere that wasn't there. perhaps it was the crowd. i prefer MF's songs but i think MI has better showmanship. anyway, it was a great night. totally inspiring. wishing someday we'll get there soon. all the ashes were there. Amy was there too. Jiehui was mad. i think he was drunk or damn high or something along that line. he kept jumping around on the dance floor with another girl. and i mean jump. not dance. i really think he's a weirdo judging from what he did that night. he ate cigg butt, the one that still burning. he just stuffed it in his mouth, chewed it and swallowed. he pissed pocky off so she kept feeding him with cigarettes. that was quite sickly funny. beside that, he was something i'd call ill-mannered to people he's not even close to. for example, he dunked ice on pocky. kicked her and chris off the dance floor. spilled ice on my face?! i never had anyone done such thing to me before in my entire. but i guess it's his way of trying to be friendly. so yah... just weird. =SNi submitted homework at 9:01 AM | 0 more assignments
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Friday, December 17, 2004
she burns
sunburn. sun burns. i'm burnt. she burns. alcohol burns and so do cigarettes.burn me. burn me alive. burn me to hell. bury me alive.
Sampoerna tastes like your kiss. that sweet sensatation on your rosy lips. the nostalgic smell thats no longer there. the familiar tune i no longer hear. the music is still playing. playing loud. but i hear nothing. drowned by silence. deafening. ear-splitting. no one speaks. there's no more to seek. like my mind that no longer shines. my eyes that no longer spark. my word does not inspire. my face i hide in the dark.
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Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
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passed all my subjects. indeed it's a miracle.
table tennis match later in half an hour time. *sigh* i dunno what i'm doing. or rather i do not know why. i'm burnt out. no more energy. i can't even fight for myself how can i fight for hall?
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
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Drum 'n Bass
heh, last night was a couple of good dnb sets. missed aresha's set though. but dancing salsa to dnb is just so damn fun. it's been long. maybe i should go back to salsa.passed all my subjects. indeed it's a miracle.
table tennis match later in half an hour time. *sigh* i dunno what i'm doing. or rather i do not know why. i'm burnt out. no more energy. i can't even fight for myself how can i fight for hall?
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
shit! i forgot to sleep! and we're supposed to meet for the bball match at 7.50am which is actually now! oh... no... i'm dead. i'd better go get a can of coffee! =s
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Aresha's gig at Phuture
Mizery Free and Mistaken Identity album launch
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Monday, December 13, 2004
the sup: I've been waiting for you to appear for the last 4 days? Even of the other FYP student is wondering where you are? Would like to see you in lab this morning.
the Ni : It's said in your auto-reply mail that you'll be out till Wednesday (inclusive), so I didn't appear earlier. And I just woke up now to see your message, I can go to see you later if you're still in lab. Or I can see you tmr.
the sup: never mind. please see me on Monday morning.
the Ni : sure, sir. see you.
the sup: MONDAY morning and not when you wake up in the late afternoon :)
the Ni : Haha... yes sir. I won’t sleep then :)
so i went to see him this morning at 9am after i had my... mm... dinner? presented him with what i've done so far and he seemed pretty fine with it so he gave me a final set of task to complete. did u notice that? it's a FINAL set of tasks! he said "after you finish all these, you're done." oh... no... this is madness. i didn't know how to react to his statement. my face expression must have looked funny to him. i didn't know if i should be happy or disappointed. i was like... that's all? i haven't felt any sense of achivement and you said i was about to finish my project? come on! give me more stuff to do. let me prove myself to you since you looked down so much on me when we met for the first time. but on the other hand, hey... i can go back home without any worry and all i have to do during school term is just documentation and presentation! but you see he's a fox. he may just say it's fine now and fail me at the end of the year like what he did to the other FYP student, i'll never know. =S
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Gentle Reminder
Aresha's gig at Phuture
Mizery Free and Mistaken Identity album launch
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Monday, December 13, 2004
the son of...
a stadium full of bitches is now being regarded as my endearing supervisor. following is the excerpt from our conversation over e-mails on the past friday.the sup: I've been waiting for you to appear for the last 4 days? Even of the other FYP student is wondering where you are? Would like to see you in lab this morning.
the Ni : It's said in your auto-reply mail that you'll be out till Wednesday (inclusive), so I didn't appear earlier. And I just woke up now to see your message, I can go to see you later if you're still in lab. Or I can see you tmr.
the sup: never mind. please see me on Monday morning.
the Ni : sure, sir. see you.
the sup: MONDAY morning and not when you wake up in the late afternoon :)
the Ni : Haha... yes sir. I won’t sleep then :)
so i went to see him this morning at 9am after i had my... mm... dinner? presented him with what i've done so far and he seemed pretty fine with it so he gave me a final set of task to complete. did u notice that? it's a FINAL set of tasks! he said "after you finish all these, you're done." oh... no... this is madness. i didn't know how to react to his statement. my face expression must have looked funny to him. i didn't know if i should be happy or disappointed. i was like... that's all? i haven't felt any sense of achivement and you said i was about to finish my project? come on! give me more stuff to do. let me prove myself to you since you looked down so much on me when we met for the first time. but on the other hand, hey... i can go back home without any worry and all i have to do during school term is just documentation and presentation! but you see he's a fox. he may just say it's fine now and fail me at the end of the year like what he did to the other FYP student, i'll never know. =S
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heaven on earth. paradise at my back yard. come, join me for a little private party. heineken for two and a game of scrabble. let's get trippy. when the music has stopped and the light has gone out, i'll fly you to the moon and sing you a punk rock tune. we'll light your ciggarette with a sparkling star. exhale the smoke and let it leave its smell on my shirt. let me share the same sweet air that you breathe. when we get tired of chasing after the silver moon, we'll lie in the back yard and watch the stars dancing in the sky. the music is your piano keys that resound in my head. and fireflies shall be our candlelight. the night is young but i'm getting tired. why don't you read me your poetry and sing me a lullabye. hold me tight and give me a crimson kiss. say good night and i'll sleep forever in your arms. forever.
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
caught electrico last night. they played Franz Ferdinand's Take me out. not bad at all. i think they played their new song, Mine, too.
Armchair was rocking as well. the bassist is pretty good but not so action-packed as Desmond. haa... Chris and Ling were there. Sam from Pug Jelly was there too.
talked to Chris for a while.
then i left for Happy. i swear it's the best place to spot the most good looking guys in singapore, if you wonder where they have been hiding at. but it's the most unfortunate for all the singaporean women cos these macho boys won't be interested in you. what a waste. tried Lemon Drop, it was nice!
went over to round midnight after Happy closed. playing scrabble, taking photo. drink and drink.
i came back at around 7, threw up and fell asleep. was waken up by almost half a basketball team knocking and shouting at my door. and guess what?! the match is postponed to tmr becos it was raining! i felt so cheated!! =S
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
been eating cornflakes with milk since the rabbitch left. too much milk. i'm having diarrhea.
went back to step one with her. let's start all over again. i'll be good.
watched at least 10 movies for the past 2 months.
played at least a hundred games of scrabble for the past 2 weeks.
been a few months that i never jam at all. getting rusty. my fault.
little progress with FYP and nothing impressive yet.
waiting for the confirmation of air tickets back to thailand. not gonna care about FYP anymore.
having block 49 outing later. hope qq will be there.
catching aresha, electrico and armchair tonight. i shall be broker than broke.
bball match tmr moring. how am i gonna wake up?
wondering if esther is surviving well on the ice mountain.
huini came back to hall to pass me a self-made christmas card. how sweet.
cody bought a game, restaurant empire, that i wanted for me. mm... nice trick.
and there's this jazz drummer who wanna hook up with me. wait longer. let me reincarnate and we shall talk about it.
now feeling sicker and sicker. maybe i should just go and sleep.
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
electrico is playing this saturday night at rough with a popular Thai band, Armchair!
this one can't be missed! 11pm at rouge!
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Callin' out your name
I can't stop myself from fallin'
Fallin' back again
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
Dark like the shady corners
Inside a violin
Hot like to burn my lips
I know I can't win
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
I tried to quit you but I'm too weak
Wakin' up without you I can hardly speak at all
My girlfriend tried to help me
To get you off my mind
She tried a little tea and sympathy
To get me to unwind
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
Funny how my favorite shirt
Smells more like you than me
Bitter traces left behind
Stains no one can see
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
You're gonna put me in an early grave
I know I'm your slave whenever you call
I can't stop myself from callin'
Callin' out your name
I can't stop myself from fallin'
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
- In the Morning, Norah Jones
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
okay, that's not all yet. i slept all the way until 4 pm. woke up realizing that chris they all have a gig at 3pm. shit, i missed it again. please forgive me. really wanted to see you guys. let me know when is your next gig ya?
btw, met paul today with this really hot chick. it's considered an event for me so i gotta write it down. hahaha.... =D
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Friday, December 03, 2004
trust in me so i can have a trust in you.
forgive me so i shall forgive you.
love me so i will love you.
life is one big show. people put on different faces for different roles. i want to be the one you want to see, the one you want me to be. but there're too many scenes. neither you nor i can help but to act along. sometimes we don't know who we really are. sometimes we are disillusioned by the scene we see. but it's all acting. you never know if what you see is real. things might not be as bad as it seems. cos you never know who they really are. like how you never know who you really are.
"you're a bitch
but i love you anyway
you can't sing
but you still put me to sleep
baby you're a bitch
hey... hey...
you make me sick
but don't ever go away
so why don't you stay?"
- The Bitch Song, Bowling for Soup
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
apparently a lot of people don't like Anna. they have many reasons to justify their dislikes ranging from she's a bitch to she's a whore. they were trying to make me hate her too. but of cos, it didn't work. even if she were really a whore, so what? can't a whore be your friend? can't a whore be nice? i find Anna a genuinely nice girl. i remember vividly how Anna and Noraini always cooked dinner for me at 2am when i came back from guitar pracitce. we'd be on the rooftop, eating, talking, laughing the whole night till 4 or 5am. then the next morning, no one got up for school. we used to turn off the light in our hostel room, blast retro music (yes, retro. i know i was lame), drink and dance the night away. i filmed Noraini dancing when she was drunk. the tape is still with me til today. and of cos, the most memorable one was the trip to KL. 4 days 3 nights, we went clubbing every night! haha...
so what? if you don't like Anna, so what? you think i'm gonna be at your side? even if i believe everything you say, you think i'm gonna hate my own friend just becos of that? every relationship is based upon mutual fundamental trust. Anna has never broken my trust nor my faith. i'll never break hers either.
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Armchair was rocking as well. the bassist is pretty good but not so action-packed as Desmond. haa... Chris and Ling were there. Sam from Pug Jelly was there too.
talked to Chris for a while.
then i left for Happy. i swear it's the best place to spot the most good looking guys in singapore, if you wonder where they have been hiding at. but it's the most unfortunate for all the singaporean women cos these macho boys won't be interested in you. what a waste. tried Lemon Drop, it was nice!
went over to round midnight after Happy closed. playing scrabble, taking photo. drink and drink.
i came back at around 7, threw up and fell asleep. was waken up by almost half a basketball team knocking and shouting at my door. and guess what?! the match is postponed to tmr becos it was raining! i felt so cheated!! =S
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
how are you ni?
been sleeping at 10 am, wake up at 4pm for a week. it's making me sick physically.been eating cornflakes with milk since the rabbitch left. too much milk. i'm having diarrhea.
went back to step one with her. let's start all over again. i'll be good.
watched at least 10 movies for the past 2 months.
played at least a hundred games of scrabble for the past 2 weeks.
been a few months that i never jam at all. getting rusty. my fault.
little progress with FYP and nothing impressive yet.
waiting for the confirmation of air tickets back to thailand. not gonna care about FYP anymore.
having block 49 outing later. hope qq will be there.
catching aresha, electrico and armchair tonight. i shall be broker than broke.
bball match tmr moring. how am i gonna wake up?
wondering if esther is surviving well on the ice mountain.
huini came back to hall to pass me a self-made christmas card. how sweet.
cody bought a game, restaurant empire, that i wanted for me. mm... nice trick.
and there's this jazz drummer who wanna hook up with me. wait longer. let me reincarnate and we shall talk about it.
now feeling sicker and sicker. maybe i should just go and sleep.
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
electrico gig
electrico is playing this saturday night at rough with a popular Thai band, Armchair!
this one can't be missed! 11pm at rouge!
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In the Morning
I can't stop myself from callin'Callin' out your name
I can't stop myself from fallin'
Fallin' back again
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
Dark like the shady corners
Inside a violin
Hot like to burn my lips
I know I can't win
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
I tried to quit you but I'm too weak
Wakin' up without you I can hardly speak at all
My girlfriend tried to help me
To get you off my mind
She tried a little tea and sympathy
To get me to unwind
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
Funny how my favorite shirt
Smells more like you than me
Bitter traces left behind
Stains no one can see
In the mornin'
Baby in the afternoon
You're gonna put me in an early grave
I know I'm your slave whenever you call
I can't stop myself from callin'
Callin' out your name
I can't stop myself from fallin'
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
Fallin' back again
- In the Morning, Norah Jones
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
forgive me - a nightmare of oversleeping
i purposely turned down my friend's 21st birthday slumber party in order to sleep early so that i can wake up to see esther off at the airport on saturday morning. but i only slept for 2 and a half hour on friday and woke up early for softball training, i felt so tired and couldn't wake up even though i set up 2 alarm clocks. so i didn't show up at the airport though i told esther i would. she messaged me before she left saying that obviously i couldn't wake up and she understood. what an understanding friend! haha... esther, i'm sooooooooooo sorry. i really wanted to see you off but i just couldn't get up. anyway, if you get to read this, come back alive. bring me some NZ's ice mountain snow or a couple of bah bah black sheep!okay, that's not all yet. i slept all the way until 4 pm. woke up realizing that chris they all have a gig at 3pm. shit, i missed it again. please forgive me. really wanted to see you guys. let me know when is your next gig ya?
btw, met paul today with this really hot chick. it's considered an event for me so i gotta write it down. hahaha.... =D
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Friday, December 03, 2004
are you afraid?
are you freaked out? people can be so heartless. but do not be afraid cos i'll never do that to you.trust in me so i can have a trust in you.
forgive me so i shall forgive you.
love me so i will love you.
life is one big show. people put on different faces for different roles. i want to be the one you want to see, the one you want me to be. but there're too many scenes. neither you nor i can help but to act along. sometimes we don't know who we really are. sometimes we are disillusioned by the scene we see. but it's all acting. you never know if what you see is real. things might not be as bad as it seems. cos you never know who they really are. like how you never know who you really are.
"you're a bitch
but i love you anyway
you can't sing
but you still put me to sleep
baby you're a bitch
hey... hey...
you make me sick
but don't ever go away
so why don't you stay?"
- The Bitch Song, Bowling for Soup
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
Anna and I
i bumped into Anna last night when i was loitering in orchard at 1.30am and i spent 2 hours talking, catching up with her. it's been 3 whole years since we really sat down and talk. Anna was my bestest friend when i first came to NTU. we stayed in the same block. but unfortunately, she moved out after the first semester.apparently a lot of people don't like Anna. they have many reasons to justify their dislikes ranging from she's a bitch to she's a whore. they were trying to make me hate her too. but of cos, it didn't work. even if she were really a whore, so what? can't a whore be your friend? can't a whore be nice? i find Anna a genuinely nice girl. i remember vividly how Anna and Noraini always cooked dinner for me at 2am when i came back from guitar pracitce. we'd be on the rooftop, eating, talking, laughing the whole night till 4 or 5am. then the next morning, no one got up for school. we used to turn off the light in our hostel room, blast retro music (yes, retro. i know i was lame), drink and dance the night away. i filmed Noraini dancing when she was drunk. the tape is still with me til today. and of cos, the most memorable one was the trip to KL. 4 days 3 nights, we went clubbing every night! haha...
so what? if you don't like Anna, so what? you think i'm gonna be at your side? even if i believe everything you say, you think i'm gonna hate my own friend just becos of that? every relationship is based upon mutual fundamental trust. Anna has never broken my trust nor my faith. i'll never break hers either.
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